Love is hard forever

2010-03-16T07:45:00.000-07:00

STRESS! STRESS! STRESS! SUPER STRESS!!

There is this something i always keep telling myself.
Must be numb numb numb, say no to love, kick it aside,
single for life! it's hard, but i believe i can do it, cause
that is the only way that i can protect myself, and not
been hurt again! i know i can do it! :D

2010-03-09T06:12:00.000-08:00

Break down, speechless. totally give up in my life.

2010-03-07T00:38:00.000-08:00

My blog alive again! hahahah! :D be honoured that i blog again, but nobody will know my blog is alive, cause always complain and tell me said that my blog is dead hurry update, but i always said no time, lazy to update! haha! so now i update. cause i got nothing to do now, very bored, that's why i will blog, hahah!

BORING DAY!~ Super pissed with those people doesn't appreciate me at all when i care for them :( angry yet plus sad! haizx. what to do? i also can't do anything except don't care. And don't care for those people again, since they don't appreciate me. right? but as a christian, i shouldn't be like this. yes cannot be like this! :)

i don't know what to write already, too long never write blog, now also dont know what to write! hah. okie. shall stop here. people at least i blog right?

I'M MISSING YOU VERY BADLY RIGHT NOW.
*You spin my head right eound right round, when you go down when you go down down!

2009-10-25T06:04:00.000-07:00

Today feel very sleepy, woke up at 11plus. but still very sleepy.
hahah and it starting raining
weather feels damn nice and cold. then i received grace and dear texts!
dear told me he's at church his mom's office studying asked me whether i want to go and find him not.
so i bathed and take my own sweet time, by the time i reached there it's already 1plus.
okay never mind i waited for him at the canteen for 30mins?!
okay in total, cause he don't dare to ask his mom whether i can join in,.
after 30mins, i went in the room and started talking to him and having fun hahah.
his mom came in and said hi to me, then talking to him.
she asked dear said : " eh marc what's your friend's name?
he said sophia :) hahah! his mom asked us to go for lunch, okay stupid part coming.
we walked to s 11, walked round and round when i was going to order,
he said heh i don't know what to eat, can we go other places, i give him that -.- face!
hahah! we walked to don't know how many places
he come and tell me ahh never mind we go s 11 eat.
yes yes walked all the way back again and started eating and talking!
after lunch we went to 7eleven to buy drinks and his snack, eat so much!
hahah! walking back to church he talked alot of rubbish as usual,
then when we reached church went to L2 to pass his mom lunch,
he got scolded cause he didn't buy his mom's friend's lunch and didn't buy drinks.
His mom asked me to mark his maths paper,
hahah okay then he startdoing his maths paper from other schools.
awhile later the mother came in and asked me whether can help her to do some painting! hee! :D and i went up and helped her.
so fun! after painting, dear came up and started to have fun with us.
heh heh, after that her mom said :"sophia, what time you need to be home?"
i said:"anytime, ya.."
she said:" oh can you call your mom and said you are with me and i'm going to bring you out for dinner and then send you home?"
i said:" orh okay". i went down with dear to take my phone and called my mom and informed her. after calling stupid boy keep pulling my bag and having fun with me,
hahaha!! dear is mad and high and tat point of time, stupid boy,
hahah awww! :D then we went to thai express for dinner with him,
his mom and sister. hee. His mom also asked me quite alof of stuffs. very friendly and nice lady! :D then they send me home! i'm still very full! aww man. ahahah!
well, thanks dear for playing with me so crazily today the whole day! :D
all the best for your papers tomorrow! Os is killer that's what you told me! :D
but after Os you are freeeeeee! rememeber always! :D
Lastly i love you so much and missing you now! we will meet each other soon! :D
so press on my dear marcus! you can do it! hwaiting! :D :D

anyway best tomorrow start working already! heh i don't know why i'm scare! :(

2009-09-22T05:33:00.000-07:00

Okay, my blog is dead, but i shall make it alive now! :D HAHAHA! hmm N levels is like 2week times! hahahha! fighting man! the lord is with us! :D TOP is hot! okay random! :D cause i don't know what to say! heh heh! today naomi and i talked about what ah? i forget already! but we go played with her iphone of different languages, wa it's fun! hahaha! we shall had fun again naomi! :D Well i'm waiting for that day to come! i'm waiting! heh heh, i can't wait, i don't know why! you asked if i will touched? yes i will, i might even cry! hahaha! thanks for everything i don't know how to react on that day! maybe cry! hehhhh. so prepare tissue for me! :D okay i don't know what to write already! hahaha! okay people, fighting another 2more weeks and it's game over! hahaha! we will have party after that! study work and work hard! :D add oil! :D
OKAY BRIDGET THIS IS FOR YOUUUUUUU! I LOVE YOU ALWAYS! :D

2009-08-20T06:00:00.000-07:00

Life is hard for me.

I ran out of the house just now, decide to come home, everyone is worried for me and care for me. thanks people. I just can't take it and just ran out of the house. I came back just want to go youtube watch my boyfriend! top! and like what cheryl and xin ying said don't let my parents get worried for me cause it'a already late. I missed alot of people right now in my mind, feel like hugging them and said thank god that we are best friends that god gave me friends like your that i loved and treasure in my life. I'm contented with what i have now. I feel happy when the laughter that came from my friends, the craziness when talk about korean stuffs or things that are lame and funny stuffs. when you are sad they are always there for you cheering you up without any complains. In this world people always said money is important come first in life. for me i feel that god, family members and friends are important in my life. as well as health no matter what it's important for me. i'll strive hard for my sudies as well and move on in life, by not giving up.

2009-07-18T01:16:00.000-07:00

STUDY, prelims coming very very soon, i want to say thank you to my clique, i just can said all of you are great and wonderful! :D when i'm sad, all of you are always there for me, thanks alot. especially bridget and naomi, you guys stands out for me. i feel touched, xin ying, girlfriend and cheryl talked to me alot abd comfort me, thanks alot. i feel touched of what all of you have done for me, i feel that god gave me the right friends, true friends that i can trust. And the people that i can treasure in my heart always. thanks for being with me when i'm very sad. thanks people! i love all of you.

Anyway I won't be blogging and online till prelims are over. self control. heh heh!

People must study k! add oil!

yeefang, don't worry i'm fine dear, i will see you soon k? missing you too! heh heh. Love you!

sometimes when i missed you, i don't know what to. the only thing i know is to forget you.

2009-07-07T05:08:00.001-07:00

Okay just can said, no one stands you, no one is perfect in this world. wa sounds like i don't treasure the friendship with you, wa wa wa. if i doesn't. do i even bother to ask you, what happened to you and all. you just said ya i'm okay and all. did you even tell me how you feel and all? nah. oh if i do anything then tell me la, what for keep inside your heart. let who know, in the end you will go to other people and said wa lau this sophia i bear her for so long, i never bao. that's is the problem you don't solve with other people. so you expect me to know everything, when someone did worng, did they know in the first place? just open your mouth and say it out la, in the end blame other people! i didn't said i'm have done nothing wrong, you are the one start ignoring me! so now you try to pour out last time's stuffs. how best are you, best of all.

wa said that i badmouth you, wa hello who badmouth who more? best eh now try to push everything to me. great! of cause i do talk bad about people, like you don't in the first place. if you think it's wrong, why did you even join in the conversation? of cause i'm no better because i'm not god! i'm not perfect, beforing saying others say yourself. i also told you so many things to like you have me by your side and all. what if i said i have listened to you all the way, you will said it's bull shit like real you listened to me. then did you even listen to me? when did i even insult your best friends man? did i? have have have!! who is your best friends in the first place huh! i think you are the one that are pretending to love people. please do it with action you know action? not by mouth saying it. HELLO, IF I LOOK DOWN ON YOUR PAST, DO I EVEN CARE ABOUT YOU? AND WORRIED FOR YOU? WA NOW YOU LIKE THAT SAY ME LA, I WONDER DO YOU EVEN UNDERSTAND ME AND ALL, YOU ARE VERY SCARY. I WONDER WHO YOU ARE, SERIOUSLY. MEANS MY WORDS TO YOU ARE MEANINGLESS. HOW BEST IT IS.

When i tried to clear up with you, did you even bothered to talk about it? no right, so what you want me to do? And when i go out with you, you said the more the merrier, you didn't tell me only the both of us, you said ask more people. then i asked la, if not you not happy again. wa in your eyes you said i badmouth, like you don't have hor. never at all. perfect. perfect. if you think i really insult your friends and all, just speak up and tell me la, you keep quiet for what, like i will know and can read your mind, please. just tell la. so hard for you? i'm not doing it fun when i'm straightforward. I just want to defend myself. people do this to me i do back. when must i kept in silent? yah right, hate me then just say out. no need to go one big round and start blaming others hor. i need to wake up so do you.

Okay you are are so called popular in other schools np, cause your look pretty and nice figure. And i'm always the odd one out without knowing anythign, when i asked your what happened tell me leis! you all will said aiya long story. i feel so left out. and sometimes the way your say it makes me jealous, did your even know how i feel. i want to say, later your say i very what again. i have no ideas what to do with it. you only knows how to blame me, what about you? did you even treat me as your best friends in the first place. did you even treasure? no i have the answer now. it's so obvious. you only cares for yourself, well bitch all you want. not my problem, go ahead. I don't bothered anymore seriously, i tried to settle now you making the thing worse. play with me i'll play with you.

2009-07-06T04:42:00.000-07:00

In the end didnt go malaysia, HAHA. but i'm going on august. my mom promise to bring me to. HAHA :D wednesday she's going to malaysia. best, she can go and have fun, i missed simon quek leis heh! D: Didn't see him for soooo long already! okat the last i saw him is at chinese new year!
so people in didn't go ah in the end! HAHA.

Well i started to hate you like shittttttttt. you force and make me to hate you, so our friendship ends here now. goodbye.

2009-07-04T00:50:00.000-07:00

Yes. i want hurry go back to malaysia, i think is either tonight or tomorrow! okay faster please, i want to see simon quek! HAHAHA. :D

Fati son! no more emo, if not mummy will scold you very badly! hahaha.

I'm currently crazy over big bang! HAHA, oh man top so hot can! really very hot, super hot.
HAHAHA. i'm going to watch the show that they have acted with super junior,woohooo. kar yun saked me go watch cause very nice, of cause nice! cause got big bang! :D i'm going to watch now, byebye. :D

2009-07-03T06:13:00.000-07:00

These few days okay before school reopen, you already give me cold shoulders or even ignored me like as if i did something wrong, hello. when you are sad who is with you? and by your side? i don't know who brain was you or whatever. if you want to break friendship with me go ahead. since you don't want or treasure this kind of friendship at all. why must i bother? since you are not care. 4years okay maybe 3years. okay 3years, bold so much, talked so many stuffs together. the hard time we have together, you said we will go through all this together, because i'm not alone. i do treasure the friendship, what about you now? i don't know what is on your mind, i'm not your brain. so i don't know, i asked you why, you keep running away, it's like come on la, it's so damn obvious. And don't think i don't know you asked someone to add me on msn and spy me. wa i no need to know who is that, i'm the one suppose to ask who is the bloody hell that added me and who gave it. you said it's not you. and ignore him, why you have changed so much!! i don't know why, where is the old you? can you come back? really now i know who is the people that i will treasure the most and who's the one i'm not bothered to.

2009-07-01T03:50:00.000-07:00

Someone has passed away today morning. when i heard it, i'm shocked and lost. scary yet sad. girl, although i don't you, and you have added me on facebook like 2days ago. Feel rather sad although you're not my friend. i just hope you rest in peace in the other world. rest in peace dear girl. friends of hers take care too.

After this incident i treasure the people around me more, even more. imagine, your love ones sit,talk, eat with you laughing and playing the next day she's gone and go to the other world. well treasure your love ones. including your own lives. appreciate the people around you. especially when we saw their friends cried so badly, makes me feel like crying and i started to ask myself what if it's my best friend? seriously i will go crazy, scream and cry.

Rest in peace dear girl.

- how i wish you are with me now, fati son. :(

2009-06-30T03:24:00.000-07:00

Okay just finished rushing food studies coursework! bleah. tomorrow deadline, lucky on my laptop. if not dead. :(

Wa today's school. damn slack please, only have pe! HAHA, naomi said if everyday school is like that shiok man, i sure come everyday! HAHA, but won't happen one la. slack like siao man.
but we have fun today! woohoo. talking rubbish and having fun. like in the heaven man. HAHA. naomi teached me some hip hop skills, hahaha very fun and funny! heh heh. oh xin yingggg better come to school okay!!! must come!! :D kkkkk!!

Next week is Ns english and chinese oral. so fast la, then next prelim coming!!

yesterday's dinner is great with SZB! HAHA, good that you update me! HAHA. (Y). We shall have more dinner again. must update me moreeeeeeee! :D

Boy, must take care. must be happy! must smile! your mummy me. will get worried. okay i dont why i become your mom =.= so don't let me worried k? tell me if you are sad!
take care always. be strong, add oil FATI son. I don't want a son which is bian tai. so don't be bian tai anymore fati! HAHA. TAKE CARE boy.

2009-06-29T03:05:00.001-07:00

School was normal today, had fun. can see from everyone! HAHA, okay good.
mr tang said vanessa and joey need to stays at home for 1week. cause they went
thailand. wa! LOL okay. hope to see your back soon!

Mr pang's lessons shiok today! (Y)! just because of the stupid of some stupid jokes
and had fun. HAHA. okay when it's english i guess, we had some talk among ourselves
about our future job. well i told him saying that, my mom said that she wants to reconsider
to send me to shatec school, once she told me. i just feel that i'm drifting apart from bartending
one day by one day the dream is so far apart. i hate it. argh mom please let me go please. i really want bartending! D: if i can't really go, i have to go ite. then i will take outside classes to learn
bartending! okay maybe this will help!

Celebrated cheryl's belated birthday! HAHA, she thought we celebrating for bridget's birthday!
HAHAHA. it's for you dear cheryl! :D And she started calling me bian tai! wa lau why me bian tai man! D: hahah, then me girlfriend and xin yingg we went to eat tau huay! HAHAHA. we started to crap like nobody business as usual! HAHA tau huay damn shiok, chicken wing shiok, pophia also shiok! woohooo! HAHA, yichiban! (Y). :D

Yay! i'm meeting SZB for dinner later! HAHA. :D

- Totally break down seriously, i need your strength very badly now. D;

2009-06-28T03:29:00.000-07:00

Girlfriend, girlfriend, girlfriend. This is just for you. only you!!
I will help you no matter what, cause you are my girlfriend and you
have helped me alot too. here is the list, it may be stupid but it's for your own good!

Number 1 : judge people by appearance is not good!
Number 2 : judge the character ( important ) but no one is perfect in this world. so take note. as long as he is a good guy, go ahead.
Number 3 : He must understand you and you must understand him ( so no rush )
Number 4 : Time is precious, so treasure every minute and seconds.
Number 4 : Don't play one another's feelings, not good.
Number 5 : No matter what results come out. don't do silly things ( don't be like me ) not good.
Number 6 : But studies come first, priority.
Number 7 : Must not affect your studies.
Number 8 : Don't like until get love sick, or whatever sick that one call.
Number 9 : last one, love that person of who is he. cause love is so called a fate, so treasure it.
Number 10 : anything come to me, cause i'll be with you :D add oil.

- Think of it, it really hurts me alot. D:

2009-06-27T05:00:00.000-07:00

I talked to SZB just now. I said i should jump. that's it. i asked her whether she remembered about last year's incident, okay i almost jump. this lady pulled me down. if not i won't be here. then i said can be like titanic, just jump. she said then who is the guy? i said ghost la, no need guy. the new version of titanic. no need guy at all.

Once i made up my mind, i'll do it.
Scar's wound keep reopen, lost blood.
I didn't eat the whole day! I just feel very hopeless.
The light of my life is gone, seriously after today
the light is gone, who can help me find back the light?

- When i'm suffering here, will you even lend me your hands and pull me out?

2009-06-27T04:10:00.000-07:00

Fuck, i can't stand it anymore!!! Fuck.

- i'm fucking lost. how. bitch, don't tell me your problems anymore.
not bothered and interested, back off.

2009-06-26T05:57:00.000-07:00

Dear Micheal jackson. R.I.P.

- I want rilakkuma bear! a big bear, hehhhhh i want i want i want! :/
I WANT YOU BEAR! COME TO MEEEEEEEEE ;(

2009-06-26T02:56:00.000-07:00

Long last, I am now a senior. I’ve been going through a student’s daily routine for almost three months. At least, we have these three days break. Our very much awaited retreat. My classmates would gladly talk about whom they would want to seat with, what would their baon be, and the things they would want to do. We are all super excited about this. But my thrill falls upon the riding of the school bus.

It would be my first time, but I was always enchanted with its curtains, its mirrors and its seats. Last year, I would stare at it and see my reflection. I was always this awful and in this school grounds I am nothing. It wasn’t easy at all. I would want you to see me but you would not. You have already deserted me, and I’m without help. You have taken miles forward but I am rooted to this.

You rode this bus a year ago. You were seated on the third row near the window. I came to school that early just to see you leave. I was dreaming that you would direct your eyes on me, but you never did. I will be seating on the same spot today. Maybe you are still there. I can live your memories; your gentle face, your sweet smile and your spike hair. I hope a single strand has been left.

The cool breeze of the air-conditioned bus makes me shiver. It was reasonable enough that you’re wearing your pink jacket that day. Good thing I brought my black. If you were just here, our colors would match. Maybe we can talk until we reach Tagaytay. Well, what an illusion! Right now, perhaps you are still sleeping with your college friends in your dormitory and all of you had never known me. I will just spend my time sleeping in the same seat you occupied, after the group’s prayer is accomplished. I am a weirdo and I can just simply do anything I want here. I can be asleep until I reach there.

The first sunlight of dawn then touches me. I was awakened. Now my classmates are all impatient. I can hear them complaining restless because of the long trip. I sigh and get myself silent. If you were just here, what would you feel? Would you complain too? Or would you simply smile at the world like you always do?

Five kilometers traveled. You are inundating my thoughts. You are the same person who left me in bitterness and tears. You are the same person who drowned me to yourself. You did not even learn about any of this. It’s your little actions and graceful moves. It is all it takes to let me live.

Maybe you are now building your busy life. In ways I know not. In ways you know not. There is someone behind you; someone who loved you and someone who still loves you.

You may not even know me, but my love knows you. It will always see you no matter where, when and how. I am a woman and I know it will. I will stand for it. I am a woman and seasons may come, but I will still be this woman. Either in or out of the school bus.

2009-06-25T03:32:00.000-07:00

Today should be having farewell!!
but thanks to swine fluuuuuuuuu. :/if not we will be having fun +cryingg
right 37? D:

Anyway What are friends for? it goes like this :

- I'll always be with you be beside you until the very end,
wiping all your tears away, being your best friend.
Ill smile when you smile and feel all the pain you do.
And if you cry a singlie tear, i promise i'll cry too.

That's what friends for. :D isn't it. i need to thanks alot of people. heh.
well i will THANK YOU PERSONALLY.

Damn my nose very itchy nowwwwwwwww. argh! very irritating! :/
I still got fluuuuuuu D:

Well my heart is empty, whenever it's empty. something will happen. what's going
to happen next? i don't know but there's is this strong feelings coming towards me now.
heh what to do? :/ i just hope nothing will happen.

- Love hurts but sometimes its a good hurt and it feels like i'm alive!

2009-06-24T03:58:00.000-07:00

I need a magic wand, i really need it so badly.
I need it to change back the way you are.

- I need to shine and bring life into his dark little life.

I got fluuuuuu! D: tsk, i did homework till 6am in the morning! slept at 7, :/
argh can't take it anymore. give me more time pleaseeeeeee. :/
my mom said i can move to americia, sleepingg time or even lifestyle is different from people
when people sleepingg, i'm doing homework and doing other stuffs. when people awake i'm sleepingg. HAHA, i told her there got swine fluuuu. you want me to go there and kena is it?
huh huh huh. she started laughing! hahah, actually meeting xin yinggg today, but both of us too tired! hahah. sleep late loh, same reason! HAHA.

-xin yinggg! tomorrow must go tu lai uh! HAHA, i want to see you so badlyyyyyy. :D

2009-06-23T05:17:00.000-07:00

I like this picture! (Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)!

Anyway Nightmare again! tsk! haizx yo! i really don't want to watch anymore horror movies again!! :/ heh i don't know why eh, is that movie so powerful. did your get nightmare too after watching that show? or FATI keep calling me si sophia! then now all this nightmare coming to me! tsk! watch out FATI SI BIAN TAI! if it's really you! i will come after you! hahaha! oh olivia told me this new horror movie coming out! heh. called orphan! eeee siao, she sent me the peekture! she said scary! i'm going to watch! for meeee, no thanks! i don't want anymore nightmare! so scary! drag me to hell already freak me out! don't freak me out again! anyway school gonna resume la! haizx ya! hopeless already. heh dead, so many people haven't start doing CPA. *shake head* more time pleaseeeeee. haizx. must rush everything, people so lazy keep saying dont want to do aiya later! HAHA. anyway Girlfriend now your turn ah! woohooooo! come true uh huh! i wish you all the best oh! HAHA. but watch out! no matter what i will support you, don't be stress and headache uh! HAHA! (Y)(Y)(Y). oh girlfriend and kar yun better hurry go do CPA, don't drag anymore!! heh. okay i need to reply girlfriend conversation!

- Be good friend is the best way for now. right?

2009-06-22T05:45:00.000-07:00

No matter what it's my choice, i have told you so many times, i said i will wait means i will wait, no matter how long it is, i don't care how bad are you or what stream are you in. no one is perfect in this world except god. i love you cause of who you are. not about your life. why must you be so bothered about this? why why why! i don't get it why. not only you being hurt by long. who does not? if you fall, you must stand up and continue to walk down! if not who will help you if you didnt even help yourself? you said you truly believe that me that will find someone better, better than you! if i found someone better than you, i don't even like/love him, will i have my happiness? no, you just can't get what i'm trying to tell you. why are you keep running away? i just don't get it. it's my choice, i have make up my choice. since i have made up, i won't regret at all. can you just believe me this once? why can't you believe me, you keep saying you scare you will hurt me or even pain to wait for a person. this is life. if you didn't try on anything you won't experience and gain the experience.

2009-06-21T06:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UH BRIDGET! <33333

Hahaha! now i no need to appear offline uh when i see you online! hope you enjoy yourself today! yes you did i know! cause i didn't went to malaysia! and sorry uh lie to you, cause we want to give you surprise! heh heh! :D okay people! now going to say what happened today!! after celebrating bridget's birthday! stand by and ready to watch "drag me to hell"! woohoooo! Girlfriend good job! you manage to overcome your fear! love you, i hope you did uh! if not next

time got any horror movies i drag you go! hehhh. once we step in the cinema, girlfriend said ehhh i very scare can we go now, i need go toilet! i eh haven't even start yet! chill man! haizx yo!
start already? i keep saying haven't yet like don't know how many times man! finally start uh, she go sophia sophia i want go toilet, i tsk! shhh! then the show getting more scary i go grab and hugged her like siao! and she keep screaming like siao! and naomi needs to say, wai yee control yourself man! you must control! she said no no i very scare! i want to go! HAHA, she damn funny please. Till this part cinema people all silent, this stupid guy behind us said in chinese : lai liao, lai liao, lai liao! wa lau, it should be scary. Me and girlfriend started laughing like shit pleaseeeeeee! wth, HAHAHA. well this show is the most scary horror movie that i have watched! people, be prepared if you want to go watch hor! HAHA. oh oh xin ying told kasturi this joke. cause xin ying asked what movie we watching, kasturi said. oh drag me to hell, she was like wa lau! drag yourself to hell la, don't drag me! xin yingggg, you are the best when it comes to all this joke! i keep laughing like mad la, HAHA you are the best! :D the rest all peektures! heh heh, i enjoyed myself with you guys! oh oh and all is couple la that watching this show! HAHA.

- I respect your decision. i just want to tell you, i'll be waiting for you, no matter how long, i still will wait, wait till that day comes. it's my choice. why i choose to wait, cause it worth me waiting for you.

2009-06-20T07:36:00.000-07:00

SIMON QUEK! MY DEAREST SIMON QUEK! ehhhhhh hurry recover soon k? next time don't langa motorbike again la! k? must hurry recover uh, for my sake! cause you know i love you always! forever and ever! don't you worry! hope to see you soon my dearest simon quek!

well, it's still the same, feelings still the same up and down, when all this will stop? i wonder, i took the initiatives to talk to you, but you seems like haizx. i don't know what an i do now.

- abandoned heart-

2009-06-20T03:12:00.000-07:00

SOPHIA can't smile anymore.
SOPHIA lost her smile.
SOPHIA don't know what's the meaning of smile.
SOPHIA don't know how to spell a word called smile again.
SOPHIA wants to say goodbye now.
Goodbye.

What can i do? seriously, you asked me why. i have been asking myself the whole night. when you replied me, i haven't even sleeppp yet. i'm thinking, thinking and thinking and thinking to find out the answer, but i can't find out any. Do you understand how i feel now, the confuse mind and complicated feelings, unless you didn't feel it before. i don't expect anything from you, cause i just want to say how i feel. and you didn't even tell me how you feel, the true feelings. please don't hide or run away. just accept it and tell me the truth. don't care whether i get hurt anot, cause i'm well prepared. if i'm not well prepared i won't even have the courage to tell you. since i have decided to tell you, i won't regret it cause it's my decision.

2009-06-19T05:59:00.000-07:00

DEAD.

Are your words true? tell me, it's you! don't deny and don't run away. i'm talking about you! it's so obvious i'm referring to you! yes it's you! you you you you!! what can i do now serioulsy? i can't sleeppp/didn't sleeppp. keep thinking what should i do now. to stop thinking! how i wished all this is a nightmare, how i wished! you don't even care either. think i'm joking with you right! no i'm not joking with you! don't make me so miserable. tell me a way! i know if you read this, you are going to ignore or whatever! tell me! don't run away.

- sweet told me this:

every face tells a story of a past,

that can bring smiles to faces or tears in my eyes.

no matter how beautiful or ugly your past may be,

the world still revolves.

cause time can't wait for you.

pain will go away,

but to live on,

you gotta be strong.

to hold on to your future.

and you know i'll always be with you!

2009-06-18T07:03:00.000-07:00

I missed you more and more now! arghhhhhhhh. what can i do now seriously? can you tell me? please. i don't know! i don't like this kind of feelings. i think i did text you yesterday night. but where are you? are you there for me? the feeling i have now, it's mixed, empty, confused. totally lost! but what can i do? am i dumb? i think so? missed a person so much where have no courage to tell you i missed you, what if i tell you? what is your reaction? kidding? tell me what can i do that can stop all this pain from me right now? i have no idea, feel lost!

Love is blind, especially with that stupid cock eye.

2009-06-18T04:43:00.000-07:00

Screwed H1N1! D:

Again H1N1! again you, you you you again!! thanks to you, 37 farewell is gone! how best it is, why our batch so unlucky! tsk! i missed 37! argh, i can't believe it's postponed!! to when, dec! BEST! so damn long!! and it's after Ns and Os! arghhhhhhhhh why like that. it's so unfair! all your fault H1N1! everyone is so excited about it! I hope it's a nightmare! i hope kit's a nightmare! no postponed please, this farewell is important to me!! D: thanks to you once again! all of us are so well prepared. lucky haven't buy presents! if not have no ideas what to do with it! argh, disaster! our day is gone!!! NP CLIQUE, CAN WE GO OUT SOONNN!? I MISSED ALL OF YOUUUUUUU! D: LET'S GO OUT PEOPLEEEEEEE! D: PLEASEEEE PEOPLEEEEEE! D:

I need you now again, i don't know why i need you so badly now, out of the sudden i missed you, how? can you tell me what to do? i even wonder will you read this, i need you very badly now! D:

2009-06-18T01:21:00.000-07:00

I need you, i really need you, where are you now? i need you, i need your hug very badly! i really need you now, oh mannnnnnnnn, i really need you and your hug!! D: D: D:

2009-06-16T00:46:00.000-07:00

Woohoo! transformer! everyone talking about this, megan fox is a guyyyyyyyyy!! he/she went to transsexual! oh man! i now confuse should call him or her as a guy or women! hehhhh. anway yesterday went with girlfriend and xin ying to far east. First we go with xin ying to collect her prize! woohoo! happy for you! :D then we wen to far east, oh man shop to the max man! all 50% discount. HAHA shop like crazy, stay inside the shopping centre the whole day! hahaha! yesterday shopping is great! (Y) woohoo! thanks for xin ying's help! thanks! :D and girlfriend next time choose stuffs faster! don't make us pee on the spot! HAHA. okay. i'm prepared for farewell! yay! okay i'm going off malaysia this week, will be back on the 23june. i hope it wont change again, cause i missed all my cousins and relative there! the on the 24june going to ikea buy stuffs with np clique! woohoo! 25june farewell! people gonna last mintue shopping! woohoo! HAHAHAHA! take care people!

2009-06-14T04:24:00.000-07:00

Head big, head big, head big, head bigggggggg!!!

37 rather pissed, okay some of us onlyyyy. money gone, saved up for stuffs to buy, in the end all gone to .... hehhhh. i dont mind buying, but but but dont know what to buy at all! And my money will be gone!!! D: my shirt and neckless gone! don't know what to wear on farewell! big head! okay i will still buy my shirt! I don't care! so long never buy shirt! bleahhh. during farewell, if there's is wet activities, playing water bomb, i first one will bomb you bimbo! i really will bombbbbbbbbbbbb you!! stupid! 12more days to farewell. looking forward to bombbbb you!! people give us ideas of what to buy pleaseeee. we have no ideas! D:

2009-06-11T05:20:00.000-07:00

I want to blog blog blog blog now!

Alright, i shall say it everything here, woohoo! yeah, anyway, i don't know if you, yes it's you! i know you going to see this, but i still need to say what i write. Things has been happened between me and you, i thought things are settle, woohoo! disaster, and everytime i'm the one taking the initatives to talk to you and settle it nicely, means i care about the friendship between me and you, after this incident, finally! i can see and feels that you don't bother about this friendship. what can i do seriously? that's nothing i can do when you don't seems to be bothered. that's what you said you will goona missed me? when i leave pl? bottom from your heart, or just saying of the sake of saying it? why is it again and again, i treasure you as a friend. what about you? did you? if so, why you seems not to care? and i'm the idiot one keep thinking and worried for it? why is it? why am i being a idiot? might as well, no need you this best friends that every morning sees each other. since you have others and not us. i can do this, but i choose not to! why? cause i treasure and appreciate what you have done for me. even if it's a small lattle thig like even cheer up, i keep it to my heart. i wonder every words we had said and the fun. will you missed the days we had, the fun? i doubt no, you have forget. i don't know, i have no idea what are you thinking. no idea, lost. trap. think about this, my tears will roll down, a good/best friend is gone at my side. since she's not bothered and dont treasure me as her friend. heart break into pieces, will you fix it back? up to you now.

2009-06-10T05:53:00.000-07:00

2009-06-08T02:35:00.000-07:00

I shall pour everything out.

Mom, this is the second time i saw you cried so badly, yet i can't help you. my heart breaks when you cried, and i cried too if you have notice. it's okay, cry all you want. cause i'll be with you. you're my mom, if me not with you. who else will be with you? i'm your daughter, your only daugher. if you want to have a divorce, go ahead. after that you want to go malaysia and stay with aunty all it's okay go ahead. i rather suffer here alone than you suffer. mom, just want to tell you be strong. i'll be with you! how important you are in my heart. no matter where you go, you'll always be in my heart. cause you're my mom that carry a foetus in your womb for 9months. I love you mom, be strong. press on!

sophia.

2009-06-06T05:04:00.000-07:00

SO-PHI-AAAAA IS SOOOOOOO DEPRESSEDDDDDDDDD!!

2009-06-05T22:37:00.000-07:00

Alright, yesterday night talked to my cousins in the web cam. okay is damn funny. cause i don't like to play with web cam, after the both of them persuade me. I started to love web cam. HAHA. I'm in loved with it! :D Here are the photos that had took. okay i look like an idiot in all the photos. HAHA, so don't comment or anything! :D Anyway yeefang and yeejia, i missed you guys not only the both of you, and the rest too! D: yeefang if i really go back on the 3rd week of holidays! i will confirm won't enjoy myself there without you! and you are going back to KL! D: can't get to see and hug you! aww! D: what to do? i will missed you very badly! D: anway hope to see all of you soon yeah? :D Love all of you! :D

2009-06-03T05:47:00.000-07:00

Today is a very suai day that's what i can said. After watching the east zone art festival held in school, then going back home. so decided to take 158. when i saw 158 i ran like mad ahead to the bus stopped there, i thought that bus driver saw me running and waited for me, so when i reached the doorstep, stupid bus driver looked at me and smile, then drove off. like what the hell. i told myself never mind it's okay. shall wait for another 158 then. about 4seconds later, 4 SECONDS! a guy sitting on the wheelchair wearing a mask went up a civil defences ambulance. i dont know whether he had H1N1 virus, if he had. i first one kena, he past by me. i hurried cover my mouth and nose, the problem is i dont even know what virus or whatever sickness he got. oh mannnn i think i can't sleeppppp tonight due to this. what if i kena H1N1? D: i don't know, i hope nothing will happen. argh unlucky day! stupid bus driver, don't make me see you again! bleah! D:

2009-05-29T03:23:00.000-07:00

2009-05-28T03:54:00.000-07:00

2009-05-25T02:08:00.000-07:00

Thank god, all of you are safe and back from camp yesterday! :D

Well, i don't know how to start it. okay. Today when i reached home. when i was about to go bathe. my mom came home, at first i don't know she was crying. so she was like. mian, you eat already? are you hungry? i replied saying oh i bought my lunch already thanks mom. she cried louder and more obvious this time round. i said mom what's happening? why are you crying? she said my uncle passed away i just received a call from your grandma and aunt. i feel like attending the funeral but it's to fast away. well i kept quiet and shocked cause i don't really remembered who is her uncle. plus my mom didn't see him about 11years. that time i'm just 5years old. my mom decided to go back and visit him during the june holiday. but sadly he passed away today morning. first time seeing my mom cried till so badly makes me want to cry. my mom loved him alot. as when she's young, her uncle always stands out for my mom and her siblings. when they are been bullied/torture by their dad's side grandparents. their grandparents hate them as well as my grandmother ( my mom's mom ). they had a hardship last time. my grandfather abandon them includes his wife ( my grandmother ). and find a mistress outside and had 1 son and daughter =.=. my mom and her siblings had no money for school. they are poor. only her uncle loved them and willing to help them no matter what circumstances. my mom just can't stop crying now. where she thinked back the past. i started to hate my grandfather. i can't believed he treats my mom all so badly. even torture them. so i'm not going to do food studies. i must stay with her plus i have no idea what to do and to comfort her. for now the only i can do is to stay by her side. i love you mom, be strong. i will go through this with you. because you're not alone.

2009-05-22T05:09:00.000-07:00

Yesterday can't sleep well due to some matters that everyone get freaks out and worried for. yes zhi ying is worried so am i. okay wan ting too. we discussed so long in the end he can't go for the camp. yes! everyone is save. But the lastest news, he's allowed to go and he went! damn! why must let him go in the first place? where he's so damn freaky, daring and got the encourage to kill someone yet choose today. he had a police case and even tried to burn down a teacher's house! i just pray that, he won't hurt our juniors ( our babies ) there! i just woke up, the feeling is so uneasy. very empty. feel like things are going to happen soon. think all of us can't sleep well tonight. we just told mr leeeeee update us if anything happens, but he said he's busy doing alot of stuffs there. i just hope he remmeber to update us if anything happens. mr leeeeee i just hope you will try your best to look out k. well in the mean time take good care of youself and beware too! MUST TAKE CARE! D: D: D: batch 38 and 39 went to ATC/STC camp. the weather is so hot, even i'm at home already feel so hot. when on my home with wan ting today, i looked at the sky. the weather is so hot!! last year and 2years ago when we go for ATC/STC camp. the wether not that hot. i just hope they will be alright, under our tips yesterday to them. i will just keep praying. for now, we can't do anything much just hope all of them will return safely. please take care everyone.

Anyway, in class today we was talking about our future. where to go. okay i made my mind. no want can change or stop me. i'm going to shatec school with pig. she go for baking, i'm going for bartending. oh maybe kar yun going for baking too. i hope wai yee my dearest girlfriend! you can find a school to persue your dreams! i will help you! :D naomi mrs kim bum! i will tell you everyday don't give up, press on. go for your dreams like what you had told me. i won't let you give up. will motivate you all the way. :D i will help you too! :D well whoever have dreams, please don't give up! i will help all of you with all i can! persue it. no one will stop you unless you give up. NO ONE CAN! it's your dream, your life and your choice. persue it! and live for it! :D

2009-05-21T04:23:00.000-07:00

SOPHIA IS VERY VERY VERY SAD NOW!! SHE'S GOING TO BREAK DOWN SOON!! D:

2009-05-20T06:10:00.000-07:00

Just feel like blogging about this. alright, everyone in my class is crazy over boys before flowers. okay half. or even 3/4. hahaha. Naomi, wai yee, cheryl and valerie is so crazy over KIM BUM! HAHAHA! okay i can said he's hot and cute. yeah. 4 of them are fighting over him, so naomi get the bum, cheryl get the kim and wai yee get the kim bum. hahaha!! but naomi said i don't want the bum. hahaha. so crazy and devoted on it man. 3 of you can slowly fight to get him. heh heh. xin ying lucky one. can have it herself, no need to fight. heh heh. same goes to kar yun. hahah. i don't know how to spell that curly hair guy name. hahah. i'm devoted to jae joong from tohoshinki! oh man! hahah! he's damn hot and cute. :D okay tomorrow sure a crazy day. and the 3 of them start again with their kim bum's story! school will be fun each day! hahah! oh oh yes!! xin ying and kar yun, sorry sorry from super junior this song is damn nice! yeah i agree!! hahah! :D tomorrow will be a better day! :D

TOHOSHINKI!!

JAE JOONG!<3>

JAE JOONG! OH MAN YOU ARE SO HOT!! :D

*I just hope you will understand me much much much better by now cause we have known each other for 4years. I don't know what you are thinking. think about it for the next step.

2009-05-19T01:42:00.000-07:00

No comment, speechless, nothing to say to you again anymore. just back off! damn!

2009-05-17T04:09:00.000-07:00

WEIRD DREAM WEIRD DREAM WEIRD DREAM!

I dreamt that i'm PREGNANT! =.= then someone appear i called him something. (stupid) after that wan ting, xin ying and bridget holding my hands cause in pain, but i don't know the baby was out hahaha! only feel stomach pain, in the end i wake up went to shit!! =.= hahaha! so stupid and weird. HAHAHA! it's stupid. And tomorrow monday already! a new week. school school school! go school tomorrow again. tuesday geeting results, i don't dare to see my papers at all. disaster!

2009-05-15T07:35:00.000-07:00

School was boring today!! D: LOL. just want to sleep, very sleepy. And i have mens! =.= although it's boring but we had fun with one another. especially bridget the "urgent urine walk"! hahahaha! wai yee, cheryl, bridget and kar yun keep playing kicking butt non stop. till i feel like playing with them! hahah! after school we saw naomi, she came to school for her cca photo taking. NAOMI!! MUST TAKE CARE K! :D i will keep you in my prayers, hope you recover soon! loves! :D then went for cca photo taking! hahah! mr leeeeee sat beside me! hahah :D i will missed np alot. lucky mr tang didn't ask for the buttons! if not i will brealk down! after that we went to change, actually we going to have training with the sec 2s, but in the end rain heavily. so they decided to bond with wan ting and zhi ying. well me and tree discussing about the sec 1 camp. tree, must press on no matter what, you can do it. cause you have us with you to help you! so don't worry! hahah! press on! :D then me and tree went to find mr leeeeee regarding about sec 1 camp stuffs. and mr leeeeee said want to take photo with us, cause we asked him during the photo taking! then he was busy don't know go where. he said he keep callignus but we keep walking and ignored him! i didn't hear he called us anyway. And we asked him to take with us. hahah. but he's camera failed, hahaha. so in he end using phone. oh thanks wan ting! today didn't go shopping! shall go next time!! :D pictures! :

wan ting took all this pictures! hahah! so she just sent me, i just post everything! hahaha. i feel rather pissed at you. you throw all your work to tree. and you nicely doing nothing and claim all the credits! or you won't even claim at all. you are just irresponsible. how nice are you man! you think by sucking up, you are safe from getting into trouble or whatever, you are so wrong! your truth side will be found out. your ugly sides. poor tree must do alone without your help. just help her and stop all your craps. damn! went out with xin ying yesterday! hahaha! xin ying you are very funny! we shall have more shopping and we can start laughing everywhere we go!! hahahaha!! :D

2009-05-13T22:39:00.000-07:00

Yay!! finally mid years end! heh. tomorrow just left with cpa pratical and can bye bye to mid years! the stress, mugging till midnight like crazy. finally over! today after food studies paper. went to j8 with clique eating lunch and had fun there! :D started to take unglams at each other. okay kar yun i shall not post the pictures! hahah! so don't worry. And we shall have more clique outing!! hahaha! it will be fun! right? heh heh. anyway take care naomi! drink more water! :D yes jin gui you too! :D okay i feel like pouring out yesterday science's paper! the whole class flunked that paper 2! how best it is man. during the exams, people are making that tsk sound. banging the tables, calculator, pen and even pencil. everyone is so pissed off by the stupid paper. when collecting the papers everyone started discussing about the paper. everyone is like cursing like mad. the hardest science paper that i have took. when i flipped over that paper, first question already a welcome to you. I'm going to fail that paper! really going to fail like shit. and it's 60marks!! and it doesn't even look like 60marks. gone, everything gone! damn. if i failed the paper damn badly, i will go insane and tear the paper into pieces and throw it in the bin. D:

2009-05-09T09:32:00.001-07:00

THANKS TAN SHI MIN FOR YOUR CALCULATOR!!! IF NOT I WON'T SURVIVE!!!

2009-05-09T09:32:00.000-07:00

Xin ying came my house today, she just called me said she just reached home! and the time now is 12.36am. hahaha! love her laughter! :D we had fun, especially muareen text me and told me about she and that freak. we started talking crap! hahah! anyway, maureen! if that freak bully you again! xin ying and me will go han tam her!! heh heh! we will be with you always. oh and please don't get hurt again. cause we will worried for you. because that freak is not worth it for you to get upset or hurt! yes! today unproductive! didn't manage to study well. even kar yun said she want to scream! hahaha! she's going crazy already! hahaha kar yun work hard! :D okay must mug already if not i will die on tuesday, start talking myself and playing the jacket! hahaha!

2009-05-08T06:55:00.000-07:00

Today maths paper 2 is, okay. but lost marks behind. screwed D: lucky got methods marks! :D so not that bad! hahah! tuesday having science! must really mug like crazy! D: very stress! and this is just only mid years! oh man! i can't believe when it comes to prelim and N levels. well i will try my very best! anyway, people study hard once again! I won't give up my dream. i will persue it, no matter what. i want to go shatec and learn bartending. i really hope i can go! D: same to those people out there, if you have dreams don't ever give up. no one can stop you. unless you give up. all the best people! especially my clique and some lovely in 37. :D

Anyway, disaster. i can't believe that you have the abilities to shine, excel and all. And if you think by sucking up to people that are higher than you, and can get what you want. oh man please it's very stupid if you think this way. you won't last long it's just infatuation. all your ugly side, plans and actions will be soon found out. Just stop think too highly of yourself! yes. you can stand it. but people don't. oh and tree, i'm gald that you can get the role you want! :D all the best. I will support you. like what i had already promise you to come back and see! hahaha!

2009-05-05T09:16:00.000-07:00

Mugging like crazy, yet i'm still missing you. I don't know why. i missed 37 again when i'm having cpa paper and now. When doing cpa paper half way. i suddenly think of you guys. and i'm holding the np pin when i'm doing. i missed you guys again. The momeries that we had together till now i'm still holding it tie not willing to let go. let's have sqd outing soon pleaseeeeeee! heh! anyway people study hard and press on! :D

2009-05-01T03:38:00.000-07:00

Woke up late today, and xin ying called me that they are on the bus already, plus my dad is bathing! i panicked like crazy! then then then, i received anotehr call from xin ying, but didnt pick up cause wearing pants. when i called her back she said she's reaching my stop! i'm like oh man, confirm i can't catch up already. In the end xin ying said she's at my house bus stop waiting for me! hahaha! so nice of her. Thanks xin ying waiting for me today! :D then she told me said that wai yee and kar yun go to the swimming pool first. Sorry guys that i'm late today! okay we had lots of fun. thought that wai yee don't know how to swim at all. cause she told us she don't know how to swim at all. And then she almost all the style, she know how to swim la she! =.= hahah! okay after i guess 1 hour or 1 and a half hours later. wai yee said we go see got sell food anot. i said oh okay. then when we get up, kar yun said here never sell any food. we huh okay, wai yee jumped into the pool. i was like eh, quite fun leis. haha i want to try. when i jumped down. i hit some stupid thing and my toe nail split. when i'm inside the pool, i feel my toe is numb and i realised it's bleeding. then i hurry got up. and went to the toilet, kar yun helped me to clean away and the lady in the toilet saw ad she gave me plasters. thanks kar yun and that lady! in the end we ended up went to bathe and had lunch. sorry guts once again! again it's me! cause all of you can't swim! i promise next time i won't be late and hit something when we go swimming again! heh! :D okay i'm going to find wan ting now. she asked me whether can eat dinner with her. after that i'm going to mug again! bleah! all the best everyone! :D

2009-04-30T04:23:00.000-07:00

7days that we had already stepped down :/ yesterday staying back for remedial lesson, then went to support xin ying, bridget all, cause they all playing in i challenge! yay! our class came in first position! heh heh! good job! :D after that me, xin ying, vivien, valerie and phyllis went to hougang mall and eat, on our way there. we had lots of fun, heh heh! we talked about porm night what to waear and all. but vivien! i won't dare to wear dress! cause i'm fat, no size la! spoil the dress only! but vivien said something that i want to laugh! :D hahaha thanks! and sorry i keep 19 yesterday! [19 is my code fart number]. but at least i didn't fart infront of you guys and silent killer! hahah! i said the code before it came out of my ass. hahaha! okay, i'm still mugging like crazy, bleah. must keep mugging. mid years are like 3days away! oh man, anyway! goodluck everyone! press on! :D

The memories we all had together, it won't fade away. i promise all of you! :D these few days, all the memories keep running through my mind. I don't know why, when farewell comes, i can't bear to let everything go. :/ cause i can't. :/

2009-04-27T08:29:00.000-07:00

Mugging like crazy! :/ the 4th day that we had stepped down! D: 4 years memories still running through my mind. especially that time my finger kena pegged during camp craft competition and went for operation, all this memories i cant bear to let go! :/ i missed the past, all i have now is memories with all of you. my memories with all of you won't be fade away!I missed my cousins too! i wonder how are they now! i'm going to see them soon in june! i hope to see them soon! hope all of you are doing fine and coping well. I MISSED YOUR! :/ just for you:*my life will be meaningless without you by my side. Thanks for walking down the path with me when i'm troubled. And motiviate me back! you are just great! no matter how many thank you i'm going to thank, it's not enough, cause you had guide me from my life and np. Really thank you once again!

2009-04-25T08:40:00.000-07:00

I just cant believe your gone still waitin for mornin to come when i see if the sun will rise, in the way that your by my side well we got so much in store tell me what is it im reaching for when were through building memories ill hold yesterday in my heart in my heart they can take tomorrow and the plans we made they can take the music that we never play all the broken dreams take everything just take it away, but they can never have yesterday they can take the future that we'll never know they can take the placesthat we said we will go all the broken dreams take everything just take it away, but they can never have yesterday you always choose to stay I should be thankful for everyday heaven knows what the future holds, or least where the story goes I never believed untill now I know il see you again im sure no its not selfish to ask for more one more night one more day one more smile on your face but they cant take yesterday they can take tomorrow and the plans we made they can take the music that we never play all the broken dreams take everything just take it away, but they can never have yesterday they can take the future that we'll never know they can take the places that we said we will go all the broken dreams take everything just take it away, but they can never have yesterday I thought our days would last forever but it wasnt our destiny cause in my mind we had so much time, but i was so wrong no i can believe that I can still find the strengh in the moments we made I'm lookin back on yesterday they can take tomorrow and the plans we made they can take the music that we never play all the broken dreams take everything just take it away, but they can never have yesterday they can take the future that we'll never know they can take the places that we said we will go all the broken dreams take everything just take it away, but they can never have yesterday all the broken dreams take everything I'm lookin back on yesterday.

2009-04-25T06:10:00.000-07:00

All the memories we had together seems like yesterday.

2009-04-24T06:23:00.000-07:00

I still somehow missed np! heh! sounds so weird! but it's true i still missed everyone, like what xin ying said the time we had been punished/pump, cried and all the sweat we had. the times after atc and sc camp, rush back to school like crazy and bathe in school started having fun! D: i want the fun everyting back again! yes, i missed those time after that we will start complaining! heh, sounds fun but it's in the past. we can't turn the time back. :/ stepped down the 2day!( i'm count-dowing) heh! everytimes talks about np, we ave lots of stuffs to say, like hrmp boys! ahahah, but not me. i'm not the one that started it. and it's ..... ya. should know who started it first! mommy wong! ahaha! the past and everything. but we enjoyed it la, cause will started laughing. there is one thing i feel regreted and that is quarrelled with mr tang! he's a very nice teacher that i can look up to, and he motiviates me in np asked me to no give up. and i always learn something from him.

he will always said this to me: Sophia, the cadets out there respect you not cause of your rank. they respect you beacuse you are respectable. juniors won't respect me, cause i'm not a respectable person that's how i feel and think. mr tang, thanks once again, i had learn lots of stuffs from you in np. and you always didn't give me up.

:D Next the teacher that i respect the most or my best counsellor! MR LEEEEEE! :D MR LEEEE, you had listened to me like don't know how many times, didn't complain and just listen to me when i need a listening ear. heh heh! nice of you! :D then then then you got patience on us, :D Thanks alot! i appreciate it alot! :D thank god that you are in npcc! if not we can't have such a nice officer! ahahah! :D

TO ALL MY DEAREST SQDMATES 37!<3>e always said so long haven't step down! argh! but finally we stepped dwon, yet can't beart to leave the unit or even us. heh. but it's alright! as long as we remembered one and anotehr the memories won't be fade away! we work hard together strive good results! we 37 will always with one another no matter what! cause we loved 37 and 37 is loved! :D

*I will missed you very badly :/ the memories you gave me, i won't forget. thanks alot once again! :D

today had lots of fun with my clique! ahahah! i waited for xin ying, cause she having oral today! heh heh! then we went to mama shop having fun and our secret talk! ahaha! she said name it as secret talk! ahahaha! yeah! then i think the both of us quite alot. then i realised that i have known her like since, 5years old? or younger than that? ahaha! oh oh oh and shi min thanks for accompany me at the canteen today! ahaha! :D

2009-04-23T06:10:00.000-07:00

Last np session. 4years of memories need to let go in 1 day. i can't do it. I'll missed 37 alot! D: Today's muster parade i'm the pc= parade commander. lucky didn't screw up, i told myself this is the last parade that 37 have. i can't screw up, must end with good ending. people said me and zhi ying march fast, screwed up at the march past D: bleah. everything is over, so i can't say anything. whatever is done, is already done, cannot be undone! heh!

4years in np, and just past out parade like for only 30mins?

2009-04-21T06:57:00.000-07:00

I started to miss you D: feels empty. yet i can't do anything. i'm still holding on!

2009-04-18T08:41:00.000-07:00

Today's NPAP was great! ahahah! people are in the parade! good job! didn't fall out! your persevere to the end! heh heh! :D all the hard work has already paid off! :D congrats! and thanks for the tickets too! ahahah!

daddy wong and mommy wong standing behind! follwed by wan ting, zhi ying and me!

mrs rajah and us!

Lindian, phyllis, me, zhi ying and wan ting!

me, zhi ying and wan ting!

wan ting, mr tang, me and zhi ying!

wan ting, farida, mr tang, me and zhi ying!

Stand by! ahahah!

waiting waiting for GOH to come!

waiting for the GOH to come!

2009-04-15T06:03:00.000-07:00

I will paint the sky with love..

2009-04-14T04:58:00.000-07:00

Don't give up yourself/life! be strong my dearest! :D no matter what you should know 37 will always be with you! study hard, work hard. die die dont' give up. we will be with you always! i know it's hard, but with determination nothing is impossible! plus so many of us are going through with you. promise me don't do anything silly that harm you and things that you will regret the next time. i'm sure your future ahead will be better than now! we love you you should know that, stay strong. press on! you can do it! let's go through this together cause you are not alone!

2009-04-13T06:14:00.000-07:00

Friends should be united as one like the colour pencils! heh heh!

2009-04-13T06:02:00.000-07:00

I don't know how to face you, whenever i see you. I'm scare, stuck and lost! :/ what i can i do? i really have no ideas! how how how? argh! :/ everything is just impossible and i can't do anything either. :/ all i can do is so let it be, let all the miserables, hurt, pain wait for the wind to blow away! Gone with the wind! wushhhhhhhhhhh!

*Love is hard and blind, especially with that stupid cock eye!

2009-04-13T05:43:00.000-07:00

Think of the past, who are the ones that are with you all the times? sad, angry, lonely, cry and all. when you need help who do you turn to? when you no need them/her or him, what did you do with it? one word to describe : no need you, they are gone! wushhhhhhhhhhh! why? i also don't know why and really want to know why! And What is done, already done. cannot be undone! The hurt, the pain, the scar are there and it slashes down too deeply. Till the pain and hurt can't be remove till it's gone and numb. no more feelings.. Gone!

2009-04-10T23:51:00.000-07:00

I'm damn pissed right, first day of renovation. it's going to take 10days. damn. best! my house is like having disaster now. so noisy and dirty! workers came at 830 in the morning, i didnt sleep at all. helping my mom do the last minute packing the stuffs in the toilet till today morning. now we are like in the rest room( for people to rest inside plus sofa), like no life at all. my house like wow! so dusty! and tonight we have no idea where to sleep. maybe in the bedroom. dont know. hate renovation, today just the first day. ohhhhhhhh mannnnnnn, totally suck. bleah!

All my stuffs are inside this room or whatever it is.

Didn't manage to take picture of the house, my mom don't allow me to go in cause it's very dusty! D:

2009-04-08T04:10:00.001-07:00

Today had N level practical! heng, didn't screw up for the exam!

omgggggggg! finally it's over! yay! :D

see wai yee!! i told you grape mixed with lychee taste shiok! heh heh!
cause i told you i'm a bartender so must listen to my advice! hahahah! :D

All the best to those people are taking next week!
THRASH! :D

np tomorrow. remember to bring full u.

2009-04-06T04:20:00.000-07:00

Follow my heart with god's help.

other than that i have no idea what to do?

seriously don't know, finally i pour out everything today.

If not i will be still lost and stuck.

omgosh, i really need a shoulder for me now.

i really can't take it anylonger.

argh!

2009-04-01T05:55:00.000-07:00

LOL! ahahah! all of us kena tricked by bridget and naomi! ahahaha! scare me eh the both of them cause me worried for them the whole day. ahahaha! lucky it's just a prank ah!

if not i will very worried! heh heh^^

Anyway. you are just pissing me off like shit! please just back off! who you think you are? just stop all your stupid damn nonsense? you have better nothing to do? just keep your mouth shut! and stop saying what. "if you don't want others to get the wrong idea, but they just do". you are just annoying me like shit seriously. and you will just said: hey chill. i dont want you to cause any misunderstanding about me or whatever shit it is. oh anyway how's your day? eh hello, come on la! are you like dumb or what? just lesiten to me la that whatever i need to say! A nd please just get the damn fact that i dont like you! that's it! why are you so stubborn? i dont get it why! please stop doing whatever you are trying to do to me. trying or even asked whether i'm still a crook anot. it's totally non of your business. you dont have to know about my life and dont even to think about finding out about my life! you have no rights to know about my life and we are not even close at all! you think you are damn highly! where i thonk you are not at all!no more rubbish, all the shit out from your mouth! lastly just keep your mouth shut!

bloody ass!

2009-03-30T05:12:00.000-07:00

flying fox! damn fun! i think no more pictures! dont know.maybe no more! i will missed the fun that we had!

2009-03-30T03:37:00.000-07:00

All this photos taken from sports day!

ahahaha! :D

2009-03-28T07:18:00.000-07:00

Today HRC/ATF was fun! yay! hahaha, when we are on the bus on our way to changi jetty, and everyone so tired and listening to music and sleep. Once we reached there, i was like: " eh phyllis quan, i saw your 3 boyfriends already!" she was like: "yes la yes la!". everyone look at us like some freaks, and the atmosphere was there already once we reached the changi jetty! we sat the bump boat. and we feel so tired and the breeze is so nice and can smell the seawater! when we are walking to our campsite, one of the juntion we dont know where to turn to, and decided to look on the map. in th end we still walked the wrong path! thanks to phyllis uh! actually that route still can go o campsite but is at the back gate. mrs rajah said go by the front gate is better, cause we are all girls. if anything happened to us, no one knows! Then we met the maris stella's guys and they laughed at us that we walked the wrong route. lots of mosquito keep coming to us and we are irritated by it. we keep walking fast till we are so tired and dont have the choice to stop cause of the stupid mosquito! when we reached the campsite, saw those ropes elements! damn scare already! when we stand by-ing to go for all this elements. we was wondering which one are we playing first! The sirs was like! PLMGSS go to the ARC station! which is high ropes element which is 4storey high! argh! and i very scare already! one of the sir said, 6 volunteers to go up first. dorisa was like: eh wan ting i wnat to go. wan ting said: okay la go la. And this zhi ying heard they are going up, she was like: eh they going up we go la. and i stupidly said okay let's go! when i climbing up, i was like: can i go back down i dont want to play anymore. in the end i went up. when i looked down. wen hui all so small till i dont even want to see! wan ting go first, screaming like crazy, next is zhi ying. she's more mad and gone case scream like nobody business. after zhi ying is me! i scream laggi worse more than them. all the names of my friends are out of my mouth and include ** ***! i shout the name like noboday business, plus mrs rajah is there and she heard everything. it's so scary, my first time playing high rope elements in 4storey high! Argh! and till now when i think back it's still freaks me out!

After that we went to play the log, it's a pair work so i partner zhi ying. as our hearts havent stable and feels numb. especially our hands no more strength. we keep stuck down there and we can only reached the 3rd log! but we had tried our best! hahaha!(: after that is lunch! bla bla bla.

after lunch we are going to play the tunnel. this station is so damn cool tahgt all of us had lots of fun! ahahah! they said 5 volunteers from PLMGSS, then we said can 6? they said okay. so the 6 of us is me, zhi ying, wan ting, dorisa, vicki and linda! the tunnel is dark till we cant see anything, not anything we must communicate and get out of the tunnel. so zhi ying go first then me, wan ting, dorisa, vicki and linda! we keep laughing inside and it's scary! stupid phyllis quan keep irrites us using the speakers and makes us go confuse and wrong way! the worse is she bretrayed us, open the tunnel door threw water on us use torch light shines at us the shut back the door! and the water is in yellow colour!! so disgusting! eeeeeeeee!
after that we manage to get out of that tunnel we got wet, shirt dirty and i got blue black when i reached home. and i got 3! ahaha!

YES the most most most most fun part in my life that ever had is FLYING FOX it's 7storey high, as wan ting found out from the sir and she counts is 50steps up the top. oh man! it's damn scary and fun. we are waiting for our turn to play wait and wait for so long, before our school is st.gabs. when it's going to be our turn, we hear this person screams so loud and the voice is like a lady.
i'm like eh isn't st.gabs laying now how come got lady's voice. in the end we saw is christopher and javin. all of us laughing like crazy their voice so niang! hahahha! when it's out turn. they said 2person go at a time, so me and zhi ying decided to go first. we are the first pl girls to went up. when i'm climbing half way i was like: eh ivery tired leis! still havent climb finished. then once we reached the top. omg! it's so damn scary! i dont even dare to look down. and eveything was ready! zhi ying was like sophia, omg dont go can i'm damn scare now. and i ingored her! hahah, i have lots of excuses. i was like: sir why got music playing one ah? and and i can see the view so clearly and the view is so nice! after all my rubbish done, i said zhi ying i count to 3 then jump ah! she huh no! i said i dont care hurry up. then once i count to 3 we jump down and screamed all the way till the end. ahahah! thw wind is so shiok when we are jumping down

1 and the st.gabs guys all cheering and clapping for us! hahah! so funny, when we get down the feeling was damn shiok. when it's linda and vick's turn. linda dont dare to come down she's stuck up there. and vicki came down it's own. we thought is wan ting dont dare to come down. then wan ting and dorisa shouted at us said no la it's linda! but in the end linda came down! hahah! great job. we had lots of fun there! then all of us very tired no voice and the face kena burnt like siao! face so red. and my face now it's still burning and red! my skin became darker! then on our way back mrs rajah keep making fun of linda and she treat us drinks! then we went to eat at our school side the coffeshop.

we had fun today! and it's our last year and time to go that campsite and it's only strictly for np people! after we step down we are not going back again. will missed that place very much and the memories there!

2009-03-27T04:24:00.000-07:00

Today having sports day, and we had fun cause it's our
last year having sports day together. got 2nd for class race!
heh heh! :D

After that went to j8 with clique for lunch then went to toa payoh.
went to IJ till 6. then meet wan ting at toa payoh again.
And they watched coming soon already, i want to watch so badly
and they watched without me. argh! but she said i see how first maybe
i will watch agian with your.

pictures will upload soon, soon soon! cause some photos are not
with me. so shall updates everything at once :D

Going ATF/HRC tomorrow! hahahaha! i'm ready to scream
all i can/want! yay! I'M COMING SOON! SOON SOON! :D

This feel days rather upset, maybe i shouldn't go think anymore.i feel so troubled.
ARGH!

2009-03-25T04:13:00.001-07:00

HAHAHA! went to pathlight school today for cip.
The childrens there are nice, and having fun with all
of us. They have lots of talents, their talents is different from us.
Hope to see them again. Hope in their life will be better.
no matter what persevere on and do not give up!
all the best to them. and lastly,

May the lord bless all of you. :D

anyway wai yee!( girlfriend) :D
All my cousins photos that i had took with
is all the way at the end. go and see.
you asked me to re post again so better
hurry go take! hahahaha!

2009-03-23T04:44:00.001-07:00

Hey guys! (clique)
The photos are below!
and and see or take it aslo can!^^

2009-03-23T04:34:00.000-07:00

YEE FANG OR YU FANG!<3

Anyway i do missed all of you!

really! and i hope to see you guys soon.

do take care! alright!

thanks for the memories that all of you gave

me in malaysia!

hahaha! yay!

2009-03-23T04:31:00.000-07:00

I had enjoyed myself today!
thanks to all you guys. (clique)
the surprise all of you gave me!
really thanks alot. (:
I will remember it always.
i do love all of you.
all the best in your life.
And may our dreams job success!
look forward to it!
press on!

* i dont know why i rotate the photos,
still like that.
HAHAH!

2009-03-23T04:07:00.000-07:00

2009-03-21T03:47:00.000-07:00

when i grow up, if i can be a bartender.
which i want to be so badly.
The first cocktail i'm want to mix is
[ Singapore Sling ]. under Brandy.

I really hope my dream will come true.
not only Singapore Sling and other types of cocktails.

It's my wished!

Whatever you have done to me or my friends in the past.
It's the past, why must let everything happened again?
Why makes life so difficult? and not live peacefully?
Friends are easy to find but not true friends.
no matter how many friends you have. millions and millions.
how many are there inside are your true friends?
willing to listen to you when you need help?
Friends for you is just a title of name to show off.
what are friends mean to you? does it mean to you in their heart?
or just a name?
Friends is not a name to show, it's a action, care, a listening ear
to show them how important
are they in your life.

2009-03-18T05:24:00.000-07:00

I'm 16 today!
woohooooo!

NC 16 movies, i'm coming!
hahahaha.

Don't think wrong. not any RA movies :/

And thanks for those people that concern for me!
Thanks alot! heh heh! (:

2009-03-17T10:31:00.000-07:00

anyway this post is for you,
wan ting.

I know you are very upset about some certain stuffs.
which i dont know, dont be sad.
i know you have been crying.
leave everything to god.
i know you will past through this week.
cause you are a cheerful girl.
i know you can manage.
stay strong always.
lastly. i <3 you!

2009-03-17T10:19:00.000-07:00

hahaha1 it's 1.32am now.
Me and xin ying talking on msn.
she drew this for me!
so nice of her! :D

hahahah! thanks xin ying!
feeling damn bad during the holidays :/
I am grounded from my dad for 1week :/
feel damn sad. argh.
hope everyone is alright!
and lastly i missed all of you very badly! :(

2009-03-14T05:37:00.000-07:00

out of the sudden i missed bridget alot.
talking to her on msn.
maybe meeting on monday.
i hope really can see you, and the others :D
no matter what, leave everything to god.
i'm sure he will helped us.
be strong and remember we are always with you.
no matter where you are.
cause we are best friends which god have gave us.
And our friendship will not end until we leave this world.

Be strong and i love you<33333

2009-03-13T05:07:00.000-07:00

Went to ps today with xin ying and zhi ying.
we had fun, playing around. and saw
3gays. hahahha! first time only the 3 of us went out
together. zhi ying asked me to pick my birthday
present and he budget is below 20. hahaha!
and we stuck and blue max so long.
cause of me, hahaha. in the end i choose
this korean drama name called:
Biscuit teacher and star candy!
hahaha, i think it'll be nice
cause that person keep saying nice
nice buy! alot of people love this show.
then zhi ying said aiya buy la buy la.
hahaha, so she bought for me.
she paid half i paid half la,
hahaha. but anyway thanks zhi ying!(:
xin ying thanks for the fun today!(:

clique, i will miss all of you!
love all of you.<3

2009-03-12T04:39:00.000-07:00

Sweet asked me to read her blog just now.
anyway, somehow i agreed with her.
i didnt hurt anyone in **.
i got hurt, like what mr tang said,
i understand how you feel and i
will give you a break to prepare
yourself start afresh, remove the
pain and hurt in yout heart
and come back serve again and
helped me again. Mr Tang, thanks
for letting meto explain everything
you know me more better so am i.
i really think that our talk is
productive. I'm gald that you know
how i feel and understanding.
thanks for giving me lots of chance in **
you're the first teacher that give me
confidences to shine in **. but i failed it
and disappoint you again. thanks for
everything. And trust me alot(:
i hope i will forget the incident
it soon, although it's hard. i still need
to go through it no matter what.
I'm sure me and sweet will do it.
and we will live for one another.
to be strong and face more challenges
in ** after the march hoildays.
we both work hard together,
I'm sure we can make it(:

And i have no regrets joining
**.

thanks for the people i love that
are always with me and comfort me.
without you guys, i would no
longer survive. i love all of you(:

Mr Lee, thanks for talking to me that
day, i appreciate what you had said
to me. i really do, i won't forget
what you have done for us in **.
i think you know how we feel,
as a officer. I really think that
you are very nice. I think it's fate?
God sent you to us, when we
need help. we feel lucky that have
you in **. since last year? keep
helping us without any complains
and keep asking us to persevere
not to give up. one word i can
describe about you..
YOU ARE THE BEST TEACHER
OR COUNSELLOR I HAVE EVER SEEN
WHEN WE NEED HELP YOU ARE
ALWAYS THERE JUST FOR US*
THANKS ALOT! once again(:

2009-03-12T04:03:00.000-07:00

School was fine today.
Damn funny especially during
maths lesson where mr tang
didn't come into the class.
Me, Naomi, Xin ying, Bridget and vivien.
somehow Kasturi cause she reading
her story book(:
we talking rubbish and having
fun non stop, how i wished the time won't
stop. And keep laughing all the way!
hahahha! then we started playing
like mad having fun with ourselves.

hahaha!(:
Class race today, aiyoyo.
all wear LEE house shirt.
hahaha! so nice and special.
i wanted to buy it long ago,
so i wore it during class race.
Me, Wai yee, Xin ying, Bridget,
Vivien, Phyllis, Priscilla and Vanessa
doing class race thrash all the way.
And we enjoyed ourselves alot(:

We are the 8LEES plus Mr tang!(:

2009-03-10T04:10:00.000-07:00

I had received a news not too long ago.
everyone knows about it, except the both of us.
until now then we know.
everyone is spreading like nobody business.
how best it is.
super best.
I'm tired of all this.
I give up.
I serouisly have nothing to say.
really nothing.

whatever all of you want to say,
go ahead.

2009-03-09T19:40:00.000-07:00

luckily nothing happened to you.
it's just infection.

Thank god :D

2009-03-07T15:11:00.000-08:00

yu fang, yes.
i do missed you.
not only you, everyone.
how i wished i can see all of you soon.
):
i really do.
But why you change name to yee fang ah?
LOL!

mom at hospital check up waiting for her call.
i hope everything will go smoothly.
i hope nothing will happen to you.
be strong.

2009-03-06T03:59:00.000-08:00

I've nothing to say.

disappointed.

Watching shutter on channel u at 1130pm later.
to scream all i want. To feel better.

mom i just hope that you recover soon.
no cancer this word in your dictionary.
Don't anyhow think and you will get cancer.
YOU WON'T GET!

2009-03-04T03:30:00.000-08:00

People!
sorry i can't post the pictures,
cause i don't know why.
got problem, but i promise
i will post the pictures soon!

When i'm listening to yesterday
from leona lewis. you walk past me oh!
hahahah!

my heart is still bleeding,
how i wished the time will stop.

2009-03-03T19:36:00.000-08:00

I finally can put the music player thingy!
hahaha, anyway this is the song that i'm talking on my cousin's
blog! YU FANG! sorry ah, i put this song on my blog, cause i think it's nice!(:

2009-03-03T18:11:00.000-08:00

I read back all the letters that people had gave me.
I feel touched, especially the words that have moved me.
plus i'm listening music from my cousin's blog.
I't's damn nice makes me want to cry.

"We'll live for tmr for each other yea?
i live for you now. cause i told you i would.
I'm so glad i met you. sophia, so glad"

I'll live for you. I'll. and for my friends that have always
been there for me(: And i appreciate you guys. thanks
alot!(:

On sunday night, going to midnight.
Things had happened, over one night.
I don't know what to do and yet confuse.
I feel that I'm a failure cousin that when
things happened to him, i don't know anything
till i found out from the other cousin.
He said, " I also wanted to call and tell you, but is just
that you are in singapore, bills will explode. And he don't
know who to turn to.

I found out it's YOU that has causes the trouble.
Yet you said i'm bias siding my cousin? firstly,
you are the one that did wrong things. Don't push the
blames to others. you're just irresponsible
I'm very disappointed in you.
VERY. I'll let you go. I've nothing to say to you.
since you said we are not going to see each other again.
I ALSO DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN,
IF I SEE YOU, IT MAKES ME THINK OF THE PAST.
AND I DON'T WANT TO GET HURT AGAIN, ANYMORE.

I'm speechless,
I really have nothing to say about you again.
everything it's over.

2009-02-27T22:44:00.000-08:00

school is fine today.

we had lots of fun!

hahaa. last period xin ying and bridget having fighting game!

hahaha. Then wai yee and bei yi started to have some lame games

and we enjoyed ourselves! hahaha~

We shall have lots of fun till the last day of the year!

After school went to hort park the place is damn fun and nice!

i want to go there and have fun again! during,

the long journey is damn bored without xin ying and zhi ying.

cause they injured their leg. so they didn't walk with us.

i missed them during the journey! both of you must,

take care and recover soon! okay! (: hee.

and next time we must go together have fun again!

hahahaa. had lots of fun.

it's very high and it's very tempting to jump down!

hahaha. but i won't jump. hahaha!

it's fun with all my best friends there!(:

you all know who you are!(:

2009-02-25T19:40:00.000-08:00

On my way home saw rainbow! hahaha!

We had done and tried our very best for the game.

It doesn't matter which place we got.

As long as we enjoyed the game and had fun.

Rock on 4E1!(: <333

Although it's hard to get everyone do things together,

but with determinaton nothing is impossible.

press on!

2009-02-24T16:34:00.000-08:00

i missed you, yet i can't do anything.
i really have nothing to say.
i'm speechless.

*my life will be meaningless without you by my side.

2009-02-20T02:48:00.000-08:00

Today had lots of fun after school. xin ying, chery and me having fun in class talking about rubbish. hahahha! when cheryl said change the topic your got any ghost stories to share?
xin ying damn funny sadi i don't want to listen i very scare. she took my earpiece and listen music. hahah, talk for quite long we went to toilet and decided to go home. then xin ying asked me whether want to go opposite school mama shop and eat. we talked alot and having fun there.
we talked about the past, the wind keep blowing and our hair very messy. hahaha. about 6. we wanna go home and took 62 bus. very crowded, luckily listen to xin ying's advice not to sit cause too many people. when we came down and wait for another bus. We saw this guy wearing black t-shirt, spects, blue long jeans, quite dirty sport shoes and one army green sling bag. digging his nose all the way. dig and dig keep playing with that pi sai and fly away. don't know land on who! HAHAHAH! me and xin ying keep laughing non stop. she said don't laugh ah later the pi sai go into your mouth. hahaha. And the bus came we borad up the bus. very tired now. argh. press on!(:

i think we re drifting apart. although you keep saying you treat me as a best friend. i asked you is it true that you treat me. you said yes. i hope it is true cause this is our last year. and i won't be back in pl that soon after i graduate.

2009-02-19T03:11:00.000-08:00

chin choo clinic!

Soulful eyes of eternity, here comes the wind.
Saw a bird pass away just now.
wanted to take a picture of it. but argh forget it. i lazy to take and walk off.

when to see doctor yesterday. i'm second. hahaha. waited for the doctor to come
and he took so long finally came. I feel very tired. hopefully my voice will recover
tomorrow):

2009-02-14T07:22:00.000-08:00

* I love you people!(: <3333333333333
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!(: